my little children, for whom i am again in the anguish of childbirth until Christ is formed in you
galatians 4:19

i have been studying the book of galatians since the beginning of the new year. this verse has really stuck out to me this weekend.

paul is so desperate for people to know Christ and the true gospel, so much so that is pains him to know that they are following a false gospel and not living in the truth.

what will it take for me to have this urgency for God's kingdom?

bring it on, march.

i'll be...

well, i came to the realization that i have an intense fear of failing at my master's program.
i was on my way to Hyvee Friday night and I was just reflecting on the week, trying to figure out why i was being such a "negative nancy" and i lost it. i was thinking about giving my presentation this july and having the 'judges' or what ever the people are called who grade me tell me that i did poor research and that it was ineffective.
anyway, my fear of failure has surfaced AGAIN. this time, in a more, well, influential way. i was talking to my mentor teacher and just telling her that i wanted to quit and not do anymore work. there is absolutely no way i can turn back. i have to keep moving forward.

i am paralyzed by fear. but Lord, i trust you.

Well, Thursday is over. Had class tonight. Us secondary folk packed up about 15 minutes before class was even over. We pretty much checked out. We were the epitome of what we hate in our students.

Here is something that I have really thought a lot about recently: being intentional.
being intentional with my words and my actions.

question i want to ask myself daily: am i being a good representation of christ?

oh, hello, snowday.

dang-it! so i forgot i had this thing. but what's new?
second snow day in a row!
i am making pumpkin muffins, then i'm going to eat homemade pizza with tanya.
my research is coming together nicely.
i have a job interview with CPS. i am still trusting God that he wants me in columbia. so no complete freakouts about jobs just yet.

i am working for the weekend this week. which is just nuts since we are starting out the school week on a wednesday. i have forgotten what we did last week, so i'm sure my kiddos have also forgotten. but, hey, that is okay.

currently reading: pride and prejudice and zombies. 19 minutes.