every body's workin for the weekend

Boy, I forget about this a lot.
So here is what's going on:

1)I accepted a job offer to work at the OTHER high school in town.
I am absolutely excited. I was just thinking to myself, "why am I still so surprised/shock/in disbelief?" I think because I realize this is what I really wanted. I remember interviewing for the job LAST YEAR and thinking, wow, I'd really like to work here. and now I will be! It will be weird starting over, I'm a little scared, but it will be a fresh start. I am really going to miss my fellow Fellow. We've been attached at the hip for OVER a YEAR---he got a job in KC. we are a well oiled machine, so I will have to get used to a routine without him. I've already got some ideas brewing as to how I can tweak the instructional strategies and other expectations I have implemented right now. It's a little late in the game to make changes to my kids, but I can def. start brainstorming for next year. I'm not a newbie teacher anymore. boom. I'm excited that the school encourages STUDENT RESPONSIBILITY---something I am really passionate about.

2) still working through Nancy Drew series.
I just read "The Secret of Red Gate Farm". So, this one was WEIRD----Nancy dressed up in a white robe and mask to investigate a "nature cult"

3) I am now at a place where I feel like things are on the downhill. This means:
-I can think about, "what does ministry look like for me next year?"
-The end of the school year is near
-Completing my MASTERS is less than 3 months away

4) almost finished with Galatians. been working on it since Jan 1. thinking about doing a bit of OLD TESTAMENT reading now.

5) i'm 23 now. yikes.

i'm on this nancy drew kick.

here are the reasons why i like nancy drew:
1) fearless (takes risks, makes bold statements to the bad guys, not afraid to get in a 'high speed' car chase)
2) logical thinker
3) very aware of her surroundings
4) has a wealth of knowledge about random facts

welp, another week is winding down.
i'm being observed by my principal during third hour tomorrow, but other than that, the day should be okay.
im going to do laundry and relax. should be a good weekend.

so the job perspective is not looking hot for me or my colleagues, so, yikes, i'm going to fill out a job application this weekend.

i finished nancy drew and the hidden staircase. it was a bit scary.

my little children, for whom i am again in the anguish of childbirth until Christ is formed in you
galatians 4:19

i have been studying the book of galatians since the beginning of the new year. this verse has really stuck out to me this weekend.

paul is so desperate for people to know Christ and the true gospel, so much so that is pains him to know that they are following a false gospel and not living in the truth.

what will it take for me to have this urgency for God's kingdom?

bring it on, march.

i'll be...

well, i came to the realization that i have an intense fear of failing at my master's program.
i was on my way to Hyvee Friday night and I was just reflecting on the week, trying to figure out why i was being such a "negative nancy" and i lost it. i was thinking about giving my presentation this july and having the 'judges' or what ever the people are called who grade me tell me that i did poor research and that it was ineffective.
anyway, my fear of failure has surfaced AGAIN. this time, in a more, well, influential way. i was talking to my mentor teacher and just telling her that i wanted to quit and not do anymore work. there is absolutely no way i can turn back. i have to keep moving forward.

i am paralyzed by fear. but Lord, i trust you.

Well, Thursday is over. Had class tonight. Us secondary folk packed up about 15 minutes before class was even over. We pretty much checked out. We were the epitome of what we hate in our students.

Here is something that I have really thought a lot about recently: being intentional.
being intentional with my words and my actions.

question i want to ask myself daily: am i being a good representation of christ?

oh, hello, snowday.

dang-it! so i forgot i had this thing. but what's new?
second snow day in a row!
i am making pumpkin muffins, then i'm going to eat homemade pizza with tanya.
my research is coming together nicely.
i have a job interview with CPS. i am still trusting God that he wants me in columbia. so no complete freakouts about jobs just yet.

i am working for the weekend this week. which is just nuts since we are starting out the school week on a wednesday. i have forgotten what we did last week, so i'm sure my kiddos have also forgotten. but, hey, that is okay.

currently reading: pride and prejudice and zombies. 19 minutes.